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Saturday, June 11, 2011

Suicide Girls

For those of you that ever had a question as to why I would do it or why I ever left:

The first time I got on SG was back in 2005. The boyfriend that I had at the time was a controlling nutjob. I was feeling really insecure and I needed an outlet to express myself in a sexual way where he wasn't involved.
I decided to leave SG because the aforementioned nutjob was getting pissy and it wasn't worth the hassle.
The second time I got on Suicide Girls was after I had my son. I was desperate for a way to reclaim my body for myself. Not only did Suicide Girls help me to take back my body, it helped me to reclaim my sexuality. SG and the members of SG helped me to become more confident in myself. Not to mention, really helped to increase my sex drive and strengthen my bond with my husband.

When I left Suicide Girls, the second time, it was because I had regained my sense of self. When you're really secure in the way you view yourself sexually, it frees you up to trust your partner more and to be able to explore more with him, especially if he's the one taking the pictures and helping you to feel sexy. Not to say that he wasn't a little happy that I resigned my hopeful status on SG. He was. But, because he let me go on that journey, I now feel that I can trust in him more to be able to let me be who I am.

I have stayed in touch with some of the friends that I made on Suicide Girls. I would never go back and undo the experience that I had. I am a very sexual person. That's part of who I am. To deny that, would be to deny a part of me. It was a liberating and powerful experience. You can judge me for it, but that makes you the bad guy, not me.

So, yes, there are nude pictures of me on the internet. AND, no, I am not ashamed. I don't even plan against taking more nude pictures in the future. It's always an option. I might even sell prints again. My husband is actually quite a talented photographer. When I'm 60 and starting to sag, I would like to look back and see how great I had it at one point.

One day, if my kids ever see them, I will explain what I was feeling and what I was going through. Hopefully they will understand. At the very least they will respect the decision that I made, because I am raising my children to be respectful, compassionate people. It never had an effect on who I was as a mother, because that is a different part of my life.

Be proud of who you are. Even if other people don't understand it.

love.love.love

[Also, don't forget that all of my paintings are 50% off in my shop on my website and all of my novelties(t-shirts, candle holders,etc) are also 50% off in my store on Etsy. I need the capital to start making these dresses!!! (I'm still very excited about it if you can't tell.)]



Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Are You Sure?

I found this today whilst "googling" myself:
http://boropulse.com/2011/04/red-rose-follow-up/


Usually I google myself out of boredom and get nothing out of it, but today, I'm really glad that I did it.


Especially because this article is partially incorrect in a couple of ways.
The city doesn't demolish a building if it's not up to code. They cite the owners first. The owners have to pay fines. The city isn't going to put money into tearing down a building if it isn't condemned. The Red Rose was never in danger of being demolished.
However, I did personally speak to a contact of one of the owners on the phone. She stated that they would rather sell to someone that would save the building, but that it has become too much of a monetary strain to keep it up to codes when their renters don't pay. It's an old building. Upkeep is extensive and needed on a regular basis. The upkeep is too tedious for the owners. They don't want to have to worry about it anymore.
They will start looking through bids to accept one sometime in the Fall if someone doesn't come up with the funding to buy it and restore it.


If there is a private investor or a way for a group of people to come together to buy the building that would be great. I'm still willing to hold a fundraiser to help restore. If you buy it with the intention of restoring it, please let me know.


It worries me how the 'boro Pulse doesn't even contact the person that they're quoting to get the information correct or to see if there have been any updates. Apparently, they've read my blog, but they don't really follow if they didn't see this article(http://lizkzook.blogspot.com/2011/03/got-600000.html) about me speaking with the owner's wife.


love.love.love


EDIT:
I forgot to mention that I also reached out to Greg Tucker, President of the Rutherford County Historical Society asking if they "might have an interest in this as well."
My reply from Mr. Tucker was: 
"I suggest you talk with Gloria Christy at Shacklett's Photo.  She was recently talking about a use for the old Red Rose building.  GT"
So, obviously, the Rutherford County Historical Society has no interest in the building.


I'm open to ideas if anyone has any.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Got $600,000?

Okay. I have to say, right off the bat, that I'm a little sad.

What I can say is that I had a very nice, very genuine conversation with the owner's wife. They are all sad to see it go. They have a sentimental attachment to this building and my heart really goes out to them for having to struggle with it for so long.
The only way that I can personally save The Red Rose is if I can raise $600,000 or find an investor to buy it.
The owners have had bids on the property. If it doesn't sell soon, they will accept a bid. 
They have no interest in The Red Rose any further than that.
I still hold out a small amount of hope that someone will take an interest and buy the building before a Walgreens makes the highest bid and it is torn down - like in some late century romance novel.
That's just the kind of person I am.

For now that's all I have.

love.love.love

Monday, March 21, 2011

We Can Save The Rose

I'm optimistic! There is a chance to save it.
The Building and Codes Inspector is giving the owners until the end of the week to file an appeal with the Construction Board of Adjustments and Appeals! I wrote a letter to one of the owners. He lives in Murfreesboro. The other owner lives in New York. I'm going to send her a letter as well.
...both letters have been place in my mailbox.
So the next step, for now, is to wait. If I can get a response from either of them, I'll consider that a foot in the door. I know there have been a lot of people reading and following along with my blogs - thanks to analytics.
Now is the time to get active. I need you to step up and volunteer.
When either of the owners call me, I'm going to need some actual numbers to give them. I need to be able to say, "Yes, sir, I have [insert number] volunteers ready to get started!"
Either comment on this blog or e-mail me directly at lizkzook@hotmail.com to volunteer. Or even just to say you'd be interested when the time comes.
I'll need all sorts of different people to help. I'll need people willing to clean, people willing to go around with me to get supplies donated. I'll need people just willing to help me spread the word.
I need your help now!
Let's save The Red Rose!!!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

In Response to The Post

There has been, yet another, article on The Red Rose Dairies. Link here: http://www.murfreesboropost.com/losing-pieces-of-the-past-cms-26462 If you don't want to read it, I can spell out the underlying tone of the article. Basically, there is no hope. Sure, they use words like "optimistic", but what they are optimistic for is that something better will replace the building that is being torn down.
The major issue they have with the Rose, is parking. Are they kidding? That is a big building with a big lot. If they would incorporate the back end of the lot with the soda shop on the corner, they could easily have enough parking. That building is large enough to hold so much. I'm sure there is a way to take all of the separate parts of the building and join them to one main focus. Hell, even if they did keep the different parts of the building separate, they could add a walk-around from the back to the front. People just have to be creative and utilize the space they have. It could easily work.
This doesn't look like "A lost cause" to me. It looks like a chance for renovations and new beginnings for an old building that should get a little more respect for it's architecture alone.

Stop shuffling your feet and get on board!
In my previous blog about The Rose I listed all of the improvements that need to be made to bring it up to code. I need volunteers and I need people ready to stand to prevent The Rose from being demolished. It's easy to read an article or a blog post and say that you care. But I need people willing to pull up their boot straps and do something. We are in Tennessee after all!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Red Rose Update


On my husband's way home from work he did me a great favor and stopped by the City of Murfreesboro Building and Codes Department. There he got me copies of the Property Maintenance Inspection Report for The Red Rose Creamery Building.
There is a lot of work to be done. It's actually overwhelming, the work that needs to be done. However, it can actually be done. There is no reason why The Rose can't be fixed.
I will list a few of the things that need to be done:

  • secure building as soon as possible (opening in brick wall not secure)
  • remove all building debris, trash, glass, and refuse
  • exhaust vents were removed in auto body shop and roof was not patched
  • remove all graffiti. prep and coat as needed
  • remove/repair lintel/header at former auto body repair shop
  • repair/replace all decayed/deteriorated mortar using a tuck point procedure - exterior and foundation walls
  • masonry wall: repair, prep and coat areas damaged by graffiti - exterior walls
  • repair/replace all deteriorated soffit, fascia, roof decking and roofing. prep and coat/cover as needed. repair/replace gutter system or remove all gutters and downspouts
  • obtain proper permits and repair signs to good condition
  • repair/replace decayed and deteriorated, loose and missing treads, handrails, and guardrails. prep and coat as needed. repair concrete flooring and seal to prevent additional pop-outs and de-lamination.
  • chimney does not meet minimum standards
  • repair/replace windows and doors to weather-tight and operable condition. prep and coat to prevent continual deterioration.
  • submit inspection report from a tennessee licensed engineer addressing the structural members including temporary shoring, roof framing, columns. make all repairs as required in report and submit final inspection report from engineer approving all repairs.
I know it sounds like a lot of work. And it would be. But a lot of it can be done without any fuss if we get the right kind of people to volunteer. Handymen or anyone willing to put on some gloves and get their hands dirty. I bet we could even get some local hardware stores to donate supplies. Then all we would need is an engineer and an electrician. I know I sound like it's really easy to just pick out an engineer and say, "you. do this." I know it's not. But if we could get that far, it would just be one more step. 


In the reports were copies of the letters sent to the owners of The Rose. I now have their contact information. I will be sending both of them a letter that expresses my interest in helping to keep The Rose alive. It would be a lot more powerful if I already had names of people that wanted to volunteer.

Hopefully, the owners will be glad. Hopefully, they will want to fight for something that is important to the community as a whole.  If not, we will all have to say goodbye.

And really, I don't even know if it's possible, because the improvements were supposed to be made by March 1st. I have contacted the building inspector and asked him if the date could be extended. I'll write more when I get a response. But what if the owners could get an extension? What if we could find the volunteers? If it is possible, though, if you could actually do something about it, wouldn't you want to? Wouldn't you want to stand up together with your community and other people that care about The Rose and do something?

Who is with me? Comment below and let me know what you think!

love.love.love

For more up-to-date information on the Red Rose: http://lizkzook.blogspot.com/2011/05/are-you-sure.html